mizzi mizzi down up

my darling family,
after a few weeks lapse i have got back on the horse
again and am launching into another down-up!!
mumma, could you please send me the list of all the
kids emails again - i seem to have lost lea, peej,
josh & anna's addresses. also you may need to forward
this on to becca cause i don't think her work allow
her to receive email from yahoo. bummer!
first let me describe the setting. i am sitting in
our living room, using Meg's computer, looking out the
balcony at the harbour where there are heaps of sail
boats gathering. i can see to the other side and then
the ocean (i think!) beyond that. it really is a
stunning view.
i have been a little discouraged today. more phone
calls about jobs but no leads so far. i spoke to one
chief physio who was very helpful & put me on to
another couple of people but i have left messages with
them & doubt tat they will get back to me. the hours
i have available are not very conducive to most
mainstream physio work. then when i phone non-physio
jobs i feel like a dork having no experience. i guess
i will have to write a completely new resume outlining
my other experience eg violin teaching, playing in
bands, admin work when i was at uni etc. anyway,
please keep praying that i will find a job. austudy
should start this week but that will barely cover
rent. thanks dad for keeping on loaning me money!!
God will provide!!
great sermon yesterday about giving up identity -
humility being a key characteristic of christian
living based on Philippians 2. that is part of what i
am going through at the moment. i have given up the
title of "music director" and of being involved in the
leadership of a church - now i go to a church where no
one knows me, they don't actually need me, and i don't
do anything! (hopefully not for long though!!!) i
have also given up my identity as "physiotherapist"
and "project officer" and as a person who was known
for being a good worker. i may be able to get those
titles back but it will take time! anyway, it's a
good time to discover who i really am without titles
and other people's opinions and expectations.
much love to you all from
daughter/sister/aunty/friend......
mizzi





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orientation day

SCA has begun! Very exciting to start today - starting to meet people and to get more of an idea of what is ahead of me this year.... I'm still a bit nervous about expectations i have of myself and others have of me, but i'm looking forward to testing some of those ideas out.
I think i've found a place to stay - Meg & Jen seem really nice and it will be good to live with physios. As far as the cost - well God will have to sort that one out - i have no reason to doubt that he will provide. i have work on Friday - minding a 3 year old at SCA. maybe i can do more of that?
Paul is in surgery now. Expected to be out some time after 3pm. I feel anxious, but there is nothing to do but pray. Again no reason to doubt God's hand in his and our lives.
all is good.

leaving melbourne

this day has come too fast... i knew it would but now that it has i don't want to go. There is just too much unknown awaiting me in Sydney - I can't quite believe I have done this to myself again. Although I suppose it is better than going around the same track again and again. Tomorrow dad & I drive to Sydney. That should be interesting. i hope my car is up to it. I hope we are up to it. Then tuesday dad has some work to do. Wednesday dad's conference starts and i have orientation - oooh i'm scared about that! Will I fit in? Will I feel old? Am I good enough for the course?
There's also the matter of Paul's surgery. I know he is scared. I am a bit too. There are so many terrible possibilities. But I will not go there. It's hard to find the balance between faith, hope and trust in God. If I trusted God more i would talk to Him more about this. If I talked more to God my faith would increase. And with more faith there would be more hope. Thankfully God hears even my feeble, half-thought prayers, and accepts even the tiniest bit of faith i can muster.
Anyway, it is late and i must sleep before the big trip. Till next time...

melbourne

this is my first ever blog!
I feel a little shy, not knowing quite what to write. But my new year's resolution for 2005 was to send a letter to my family each week, to effectively record a little of my life. So tonight, as I sit on mum's computer, in melbourne again, boxes around me ready to be re-packed for sydney...I realise that the journey has begun and there is no turning back!
In many ways this just feels like another holiday home from perth, except that this time my car is here and everything is here - even though most of it is securely packed in grandma's garage. And on monday I must make the drive from here to sydney...into the unknown world of study at the School of Creative Arts. I still have no firm plans of a place to live, or a job, so it could be a little interesting to begin with. That is enough for tonight.
"Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. And today? Today is a gift. That's why we call it the present" Babatunde Olatunji